Fear Not The Vitamins... Though If You Do, I Understand

I just read part of a blog wherein the blogger wrote that food was poison, and that to counteract cravings for said poison, one should use heroin and marijuana. S/He also stated that vitamins make you gain weight.

No. They. Don't.

Let's visit the first part of that in detail: the blogger's contention that food is poison and that drugs should be used to combat hunger. In a purely logical, intellectual sense, the blogger has lost her / his fucking mind. Food is not poison. Food feeds cells and permits life. Things like heroin are literally poison. This is like saying cheese will kill you, so drink bleach when you feel that pesky craving for gorgonzola a-sneaking up on you.

But -

I've been anorexic before. I know all too well the terror of vitamins. Food is poison because, really, the sufferer doesn't want to live; and most fucking certainly of all, doesn't even like her / himself - loving oneself in that condition is simply out of the question. Drugs aren't poison because somewhere inside the sufferer's mind is the knowledge that drugs ARE poison (yes, anorexics and bulemics do think this way), and that is what the sufferer wants: poison. Food is nourishing, and drugs are not. The sufferer is not able to nourish her / himself. So because drugs are poison, they are not poison.

...Get it? Kinda?

Food is poison because it nourishes, because it provides life. The anorexic / bulemic doesn't believe that s/he deserves nourishment or life. Drugs are permitted because they further the cycle of self destruction that defines an eating disorder. For whatever reason - sexual abuse, physical / verbal abuse, or other horrible trauma - the sufferer has decided that s/he hates her / himself, and has determinedly set off upon a course of crucifying pain. Sometimes it isn't even a direct trauma that triggers an eating disorder; it's years of buying into the societal projections of the ideal body, which is currently (and has been for decades) impossibly thin. I use the word IMPOSSIBLY because the human body generally cannot maintain such slimness without serious health risks and detriments, both to the body itself and to the psyche. There are some people who are naturally "impossibly" thin, but theirs is only one body type of many. It's hard to place that in its proper perspective when this thin body type is all you ever see in advertising, television, movies, and other media, ad nauseum.

My own relationship with food is... troubled. It's something that I must deal with on a day to day basis. Sometimes I am okay eating a cookie or a sandwich. Other times, I feel guilty over lettuce. I never know which kind of day it will be.

I hate all of the adults from my formative years.